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But I’m not sure I fully felt the gravity of my loss – our loss. Finally, I recognized that three years’ worth of grief had come knocking.
For months after that conversation, I gave myself permission to mourn.
Those sad Sundays were committed to indulging the emotion and grief and healing that had eluded me. At bedtime after coming home from her dad’s on Sunday, I laid next to my then-4-year-old daughter in her twin bed. I worry I dismiss the grief my kids might feel over the divorce. Even more than an ending love, all that pain and torment is really about contending with unresolved heartbreak from divorce.
She was riled up after the transition, which is not unusual, but it spiraled into something else. After all, Lucas wasn’t even born when we separated – Helena not yet 2. You are likely as I was: needing to go through that rebound and the subsequent pain.
Even months after we split, Sundays when my kids are with their dad and I would have otherwise spent with my ex-boyfriend, I instead engaged in unseemly behavior like walking around the streets of Manhattan while bawling uncontrollably, listening to John Legend on a loop and reading the on Carrie and Mr. Not only was all this embarrassing, it was also incongruous with the events at hand. Besides the end of my relationship, my mom has been unwell.
My mom, who adores my kids second only to their parents.If you’re like me, that relationship was just that. We owned nothing together (though I’m still kind of annoyed with myself for never retrieving that La Perla nighty from his apartment, but I’ll live), and did not even share friends.Someone who I cared very much about, knew my kids, but was a lover — no more. We were emotionally, intellectually, sexually intertwined. When we broke up there was nothing to contend with grief.As my children and their needs as people grow, it seems that our circle of people shrinks – and the pressures of being a single mother mount.I am just one person responsible for two human beings. “We’ve all watched you over the past few years be so strong and amazing,” Kirsten said.When you are contending with a 360-degree life barf, there is scant space to sit quietly and feel the weighty grief of no longer spending nights with a person who you at least once — likely still — loved very much.